Posted in poetry

Daily Haiku

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Cried himself to sleep
The suffocating darkness
Please hug my baby

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Posted in Therapy

Unexpected grief

Sharing fantastic news at my birthday party!

Congratulations! You’ll make great parents! 👣

The greatest feeling in the whole wide world!

Experiencing this amazing journey!

Didn’t know if we’d have a boy or girl! 💙💝

Changing diapers and thoughts of snuggling with our future little one on the couch!

Ultrasound excitement was turned upside down. 🙃

That heartbeat anticipation was replaced by a deep tug of sorrow

Smiles and laughter 😄😆 became a sad frown 😧☹️

The shock and the horror overwhelmed us two 😳

Suddenly it was time to say goodbye 😢

Words now turned to “I’m so sorry for you”

So many questions…asking why Why WHY?

It’s pain…full of cries and screams…we are lost 😩

We’ll never forget you baby

Always in our hearts ❤️

Posted in Memories

Remembering Grandma Jean Noe (1923-2016)

Dear Grandma Noe, So now you are gone. But yet I take comfort in right now. Nothing can ever take away my fond memories of you and I together. When I sleep, I dream of you and grandpa. My heart is beating still. God bless those trees and birds from heaven’s light above. I wake to sing to the birds, go where I am reminded of you. Nothing can ever shake my will. We all must learn to face our fears. In our hour of darkness; shaking cold and searching for warmth while my heart tries to beat still. But we are born ready to die. But certainly I will try to let no one shake my will to live. In you grandma, I found a love in something beautiful. I grew my strength in places unknown. So now you must go to dance with grandpa up above. I will remember you always. Love your grandson, Chris

Posted in Therapy

Despite The Pain

This is that time of year to express gratitude because Thanksgiving is around the corner. But let me just share this story with you:

One week ago I was in a car accident at work in a company car. And that very same day my wife was going for a jog in the morning and somebody in a vehicle was chasing her, seriously! It was a rather dramatic day. Then only two days later someone broke into our house. The perpetrator took our desktop computer which contained all of our personal information and we lost all of our music or movies documents pictures and all sorts of precious memories. The two of us were very shaken up to find our front door kicked open late at night coming home from going out to dinner and having a really nice day despite what happened a few days earlier.

But I guess things happen in threes so hopefully we’re done dealing with unpleasantries for at least a few more months. However I know that we are fortunate that neither one of us was hurt that nothing else was stolen or broken that a tornado did not destroy our house and the list goes on and on of how many worse things could’ve happened. We were not displaced and did not end up homeless. We spent a couple of sleepless nights together pondering on all the what if’s and doing all kinds of research as to how to protect our home more securely and yet still I know how misfortunate other people can have it compared to what we went through.

Believe me when I say that I am truly grateful and thankful for what we do have that every morning we wake up and have breakfast and go to

imagework. And the money that we get paid from our jobs goes towards food and clothing and shelter.

I do think it’s okay and normal to feel stress from what happened to us last week. It’s understandable that when you’re in an automobile accident and that somebody in your neighborhood is chasing you while going for a casual jog in the morning and then to top it off, have your house burglarized….one would say they’ve had a little bit of a stressful week. This blog of mine is called “Noe’s happy place” blog so I am happy that worse things didn’t happen as a result from all this and that I am appreciative to still be able to type out my feelings like I’m doing now. There are many things to be happy about I just needed to get this off my chest…..

With Love,

Chris Noe