Posted in Memories

Remembering Grandma Jean Noe (1923-2016)

Dear Grandma Noe, So now you are gone. But yet I take comfort in right now. Nothing can ever take away my fond memories of you and I together. When I sleep, I dream of you and grandpa. My heart is beating still. God bless those trees and birds from heaven’s light above. I wake to sing to the birds, go where I am reminded of you. Nothing can ever shake my will. We all must learn to face our fears. In our hour of darkness; shaking cold and searching for warmth while my heart tries to beat still. But we are born ready to die. But certainly I will try to let no one shake my will to live. In you grandma, I found a love in something beautiful. I grew my strength in places unknown. So now you must go to dance with grandpa up above. I will remember you always. Love your grandson, Chris

Posted in Memories

My Tribute #loss #despair #beauty #hope #child

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LIVE – LIGHTNING CRASHES (The Lyrics)

“Lightning crashes a new mother cries
Her placenta falls to the floor
The angel opens her eyes
The confusion sets in
Before the doctor can even close the door

Lightning crashes an old mother dies
Her intentions fall to the floor
The angel closes her eyes
The confusion that was hers
Belongs now to the baby down the hall

Oh now feel it, comin’ back again
Like a rollin’, thunder chasing the wind
Forces pullin’ from
The center of the earth again
I can feel it.

Lightning crashes a new mother cries
This moment she’s been waiting for
The angel opens her eyes
Pale blue colored iris
Presents the circle
And puts the glory out to hide, hide

Oh now feel it, comin’ back again
Like a rollin’, thunder chasing the wind
Forces pullin’ from
The center of the earth again
I can feel it.

Oh now feel it, comin’ back again
Like a rollin’, thunder chasing the wind
Forces pullin’ from
The center of the earth again
I can feel it.

Oh now feel it, comin’ back again
Like a rollin’, thunder chasing the wind
Forces pullin’ from
The center of the earth again
I can feel it.”

This song keeps going through my head….over and over and over again

 

We can’t always be happy but we can appreciate the beauty of gray….

I am sad. I am holding back tears. Someone I know just passed away due to complications during childbirth. I read the news today at work and my heart stopped because I am good friends with this girl’s sisters. Her name was Alla and now she is with God. But I’m so happy that she left behind her a beautiful baby that I’m sure Lisa and Anna as well as the rest of her family will be surely embracing with open arms. May she rest in peace……

 

Posted in Therapy

A Funeral Is Neeeded

Life can truly be appreciated the most

when a loss occurs.

My wife’s only living grandmother passed away

Families from separate lives come together for rituals, ceremonies, grievances, hugs, kisses, stories and tears

We have to experience sorrow and tragedy in order to find happiness again

Do I want to drive an hour away on this cloudy Monday morning?

Did my wife ask for this to happen?

No one wants these things to interfere with daily routines

I lost my Grandpa 15 years ago and I read the eulogy

It was not easy but I did it….I’m sure he looked down on me with a smile

When funerals happen, they actually create blessings

Hot showers suddenly feel so much better

Watching a comedy can be so much funnier too

Eating food at the reception after the ceremony feels good

We can catch up on old friends and family members

Listen to their stories and share fond memories

My happy place is knowing that

I am not alone

at work

at home

in life

I am blessed at a feast full of love

everywhere I go

Matters

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