Posted in poetry, Therapy

What does a pen do?

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well it writes words and draws circles around thoughts

what does a pen do?

um, it doodles and spills ink on these thin lines?

the pen cannot do anything without me

just sits on the corner of my bed and maybe it will roll off

falling on the carpet and then i have to reach down

and pick it up and write more

but what else does a pen do?

i dunno stabbing someone that keeps asking me this?

its a weapon to fight off writers block

ideas like to hide from me but my pen is my light saber

that attacks these blank pages with aggressive force

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i force and shove my words on this stupid piece of paper

because it just wastes away until i come along

stomping, biting, digging my aggressive words of wisdom

in between these tiny rows

i squeeze the tip of this pen which is having a hard time

providing the ink when i want it to be read

by a random curious person that happens to stumble

upon this bitch fight between the pen and

the crappy recycled notebook paper

oh how i hate this!

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and now a new sheet for me

to express myself

or at least whatever seems to be seeping

from my head at the current moment

but soon it will pass

and so will my gas

and then the room will clear

but not my pen because i am

its master painter

no pen is useful without my strokes

of curiosity and the whimsical nature

that i possess

what good is a pen without rivers

of imagination?

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Posted in Therapy

Flashback to 1995

This isn’t necessarily a “happy” poem but it makes me “happy” that after 20 years, I still have this poem.

It exposes the truth of how I felt then and how it echoes how I have been feeling lately……

famous (May 1995)

can’t even write

don’t know what to say

there is no light

to make me feel okay

uncomfortable in my shoes

punishing my feet

put them to use

just to look neat

knuckles i crack

to help me think

i arch my back

and try not to blink

sitting and staring

looking around me

emotional bearings

trying to escape me

music without

i am bored

entering of doubts

cannot afford

i am distant

apart from friends

this very instant

too much blends

my head explodes

whenever i am lonely

the memories implode

crying…only

wish i were famous

never have to worry

time makes us

life is a hurry

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Posted in Therapy

Smiling on a blustery day

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HAPPY New Year!!! Welcome to 2014, please stay awhile. Currently, I’ve mostly been staying indoors.  Here in Illinois, it’s been snowing, blowing and dropped below freezing temperatures for the last 6 days. But that’s okay. I have logs burning in the fireplace. Relaxing music is playing on the stereo. Hot chocolate with marshmallows is warming up my cold body. A stack of magazines for me to read sits on the coffee table. I’m working on writing a new book. Well actually I am editing and revising what is practically ready to be submitted for publication. I self publish my stuff. So when the days are dark and cold outside, I work on my poetry and short stories. I own an acoustic guitar. Sometimes it is nice to wipe off the dust, grab a pic and start strumming those winter blues away.

For Christmas, I received a book of  Easy Word Searches. This is a fun activity to do whenever I am spun or bored. I can exercise my brain without getting dizzy and overstimulated. Oh the things we do to pass the time and insure that we remain happy.

When I read the words “nothing,” from people, when asked the question: what did you do today?, it makes me sad. It’s all about an attitude. Your days can be spent in awesome ways. Even just reading 1 or 2 positive short stories a day are enough to put you in a good mood. Keep a daily journal and write down the positive things ONLY. NOTHING NEGATIVE. Just the POSITIVE from your days. You don’t want to fall into a trap of doing the same boring things everyday.

Do something daring. Be bold. Be different. Write your feelings down (write a poem). Play a song and SING along to it. Only you can hear it! Maybe write a letter to an old friend and mail it off (like how we used to). Do something kind for someone else. It’s like playing Yahtzee, you can either take a ZERO in the chance OR put any number combination down in the square. Because ANY number is better than ZERO. Calling a friend. Watching a FUNNY movie. Doodle, draw or make crafts. purge through your purse or wallet. pour yourself a glass of wine and listen to some Dean Martin. Take a shower. Brush your teeth. So many things….

This year….let’s ALL be HAPPY!!!